after school

walking home

fresh dirt under my fingernails

and i can smell hot asphalt

cars screech to a halt to let me pass

and i cannot remember

what life was like through photographs

trying to recreate images life gave me in the past

but i cannot forget

refuse to regret

so glad i met him

take my breath away

make everyday

worth all of the pain that i have

but i've been crying

cause things ain't how they used to be

and sometimes, it's a sad song

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THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I'M FEELING RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT.

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i hate being lazy, but i can't help being one.
well, i guess i'm not lazy. i just love doing nothing.
huh? am i making any sense here?
i think not..?¿?

ANYWAY, we went to the cemetery awhile ago. that was a first!! haay.
i feel so sorry for my tita and my cousins.
please pray for them...and for my tito as well, who died during his 50th year here on earth.
thanks.

i love my princesses so much. they never fail to make me smile. they always make me feel so strong. i was having this annoying headache one time after training..but when i saw them and greeted them "hiii!!", my headache literally subsided. aww.. no joke. =) but then again, it came back after about 15 minutes. hehe sharing. and, seeing them every morning by the IV-5 corridor and receiving heartwarming hugs from them make my morning so bright. thank you. thank you. thanks for treating me as a princess even if i'm not officially part of your club right now. thanksss so much. Ü here we are during our youth camp...

i love sun cellular 24/7 call and text unlimited!! here's my number!!! [0922470929*] [clue: 8 or 9 yan] WAHAHA. hehe, it's for you to find out. text me!! call me!! wuhooo..for FREE! er, i didn't put the last digit of my number right there for safety precautions. hehe [8 or 9 nga eh] hahaha. someone's been texting me to be his sexmate. the same person has been calling my cousin to be his phonesexmate. duh. haha get a life, desperado. :p

i love mike. i never get tired of him. he has this way of making me sooo happy. he has been sooo cranky during the past few days because of his surgery. thank you God for making me very patient (totally NOT me) and understanding. hehe. anything for my mikee.

right now: argh!! something has been biting my legs! puta! puro kagat na ng lamok! ang kati! tama na nga to!

grabe na-miss ko mag xanga... kaya this is gonna be a long one...

the past days have been quite the sem break i expected. thanks to God (THANK YOU THANK YOU) for allowing my "sty" to subside. haha. but i still can't say that i had uber fun during the past days. something was missing...SOMEONE was missing. oh well. that someone is the person who makes me totally high. he gives me total euphoria. i wish i had him instead of beer, yosi, and drugs. tsss...a bunch of trash that provides temporary highness. highness...haha.

friday
* my four (or five?) hours outside my home was all worth it. i went to takipsilim with kay. tangina. mission accomplished. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. even if i left the party early, nyahaaa i can say that i had fun. thanks kay. thanks to all. thanks for all. wahaha.

* i had this spine-tingling, earth-shaking (wahaha) experience at teacher's village. kay and i were in front of his house when our van passed by!! TANGINA!! i literally felt my body all frozen up when i saw that van exactly like ours. e samen nga un eh. pucha... good thing my mom or whoever didn't see us there. GOD LOVES ME! haha! =D we had our last 5 minutes together...wow God really loves me. He gave us the chance to be in each other's arms for 5 minutes. haay...kasama ko sha for 5 minutes lang for the whole sem break. oh well towel..get well soon...

here we are at takipsilim.. [me, kay, venn]

saturday-sunday
* sleepover at vicky's!! with grace and sai. pero ang labo ni sai!! hahaha. aww... sa summer na ulit. last na ata toh this year. ehehe.. ang drama.

* food trip = BLOATED tummy. i ate a lot of lechon kawali for my 10:00am breakfast. then i ate chicken during my 12:30nn lunch. then i ate burger at mcdo with grace. then i finished 10 california makis at brewing point with grace and vicky. then we ate isaw. and chewed up judge and mentos. and gobbled up packs of junk food. and nagarayas. then ate hot & spicy tuna and cheese omelet for dinner. then we drank.

* mga lasinggera! haha, we were all desperate to drink that night. desperate, to the point that we made kutkot the cork of the wine to be able to drink up the whole bottle...plus the whisky and the gin. nakakaloka. hahaha. temporary high. argh... i wish he was with us that night.

these lines from Bamboo's Masaya struck me:
Parang droga daw ang bisa
Na ginagamit niya kanina
Sa una lang daw
Masarap

okay, so they're comparing drugs with love. to some, that comparison may be true. to me, it's not. totally not. hahaha... wala lang. pero nakakaaliw ung lines na un noh? haha. i love that song. Masaya... hehe. lalang sharing.

there. i'm done.

i just missed posting useless shit.

i love posting useless shit.

(bangag ka ba?)

that's all...thank you.

*bow*

i feel so sad right now... so down and depressed... the only thing that keeps ringing in my mind is, "WHY?" why do You have to make him suffer like that? why do You have to put me in this condition at this very moment? why us? why did this come up on a time wherein we are supposed to relax, have fun, and spend time with each other? why...?¿

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nga pala, gusto ko lang i-share, kulang ako ng isang A- :c sayang... sharing...

i'm gona edit this later... lalabas lang ako... iiyakan ko si grace... haay..